Restless, always
moving, forever passing like time itself, are most of the people who
live in these old red houses. This is on New York’s West Side.
The people are homeless, yet they have a hundred homes. They go from
furnished room to furnished room. They are transients, transients
forever—transients in living place, transients in heart and mind. They
sing the song, “Home, Sweet Home,” but they sing it without feeling what
it means. They can carry everything they own in one small box. They know
nothing of gardens. To them, flowers and leaves are something to put on
a woman’s hat.
The houses of this part of the city have had a thousand people living in
them. Therefore each house should have a thousand stories to tell.
Perhaps most of these stories would not be interesting. But it would be
strange if you did not feel, in some of these houses, that you were
among people you could not see. The spirits of some who had lived and
suffered there must surely remain, though their bodies had gone.
One evening a young man appeared, going from one to another of these big
old houses, ringing the doorbell. At the twelfth house, he put down the
bag he carried. He cleaned the dust from his face. Then he touched the
bell. It sounded far, far away, as if it were ringing deep underground.
The woman who owned the house came to the door. The young man looked at
her. He thought that she was like some fat, colorless, legless thing
that had come up from a hole in the ground, hungrily hoping for
something, or someone, to eat.
He asked if there was a room that he could have for the night.
“Come in,” said the woman. Her voice was soft, but for some reason he
did not like it. “I have the back room on the third floor. Do you wish
to look at it?”
The young man followed her up. There was little light in the halls. He
could not see where that light came from. The covering on the floor was
old and ragged. There were places in the walls made, perhaps, to hold
flowering plants. If this were true, the plants had died long before
this evening. The air was bad; no flowers could have lived in it for
long.
“This is the room,” said the woman in her soft, thick voice. “It’s a
nice room. Someone is usually living in it. I had some very nice people
in it last summer. I had no trouble with them. They paid on time. The
water is at the end of the hall. Sprowls and Mooney had the room for
three months. You know them? Theater people. The gas is here. You see
there is plenty of space to hang your clothes. It’s a room everyone
likes. If you don’t take it, someone else will take it soon.”
“Do you have many theater people living here?” asked the young man.
“They come and go. Many of my people work in the theater. Yes, sir, this
is the part of the city where theater people live. They never stay long
any place. They live in all the houses near here. They come and they go.”
The young man paid for the room for a week. He was going to stay there,
he said, and rest. He counted out the money.
The room was all ready, she said. He would find everything that he
needed. As she moved away he asked his question. He had asked it already
a thousand times. It was always there, waiting to be asked again.
“A young girl—Eloise Vashner—do you remember her? Has she ever been in
this house? She would be singing in the theater, probably. A girl of
middle height, thin, with red-gold hair and a small dark spot on her
face near her left eye.”
“No, I don’t remember the name. Theater people change names as often as
they change their rooms. They come and they go. No, I don’t remember
that one.”
No. Always no. He had asked his question for five months, and the answer
was always no.
Every day he questioned men who knew theater people. Had she gone to
them to ask for work?
Every evening he went to the theaters. He went to good theaters and to
bad ones. Some were so bad that he was afraid to find her there. Yet he
went to them, hoping.
He who had loved her best had tried to find her. She had suddenly gone
from her home. He was sure that this great city, this island, held her.
But everything in the city was moving, restless. What was on top today,
was lost at the bottom tomorrow.
The furnished room received the young man with a certain warmth. Or it
seemed to receive him warmly. It seemed to promise that here he could
rest. There was a bed and there were two chairs with ragged covers.
Between the two windows there was a looking-glass about twelve inches
wide. There were pictures on the walls.
The young man sat down in a chair, while the room tried to tell him its
history. The words it used were strange, not easy to understand, as if
they were words of many distant foreign countries.
There was a floor covering of many colors, like an island of flowers in
the middle of the room. Dust lay all around it.
There was bright wall-paper on the wall. There was a fireplace. On the
wall above it, some bright pieces of cloth were hanging. Perhaps they
had been put there to add beauty to the room. This they did not do. And
the pictures on the walls were pictures the young man had seen a hundred
times before in other furnished rooms.
Here and there around the room were small objects forgotten by others
who had used the room. There were pictures of theater people, something
to hold flowers, but nothing valuable.
One by one the little signs grew clear. They showed the young man the
others who had lived there before him.
In front of the looking-glass there was a thin spot in the floor
covering. That told him that women had been in the room.
Small finger marks on the wall told of children, trying to feel their
way to sun and air.
A larger spot on the wall made him think of someone, in anger, throwing
something there.
Across the looking-glass, some person had written the name, “Marie.” It
seemed to him that those who had lived in the furnished room had been
angry with it, and had done all they could to hurt it. Perhaps their
anger had been caused by the room’s brightness and its coldness. For
there was no true warmth in the room.
There were cuts and holes in the chairs and in the walls. The bed was
half broken. The floor cried out as if in pain when it was walked on.
People for a time had called this room “home,” and yet they had hurt it.
This was a fact not easy to believe. But perhaps it was, strangely, a
deep love of home that was the cause. The people who had lived in the
room perhaps never knew what a real home was. But they knew that this
room was not a home. Therefore their deep anger rose up and made them
strike out.
The young man in the chair allowed these thoughts to move one by one,
softly, through his mind.
At the same time, sounds and smells from other furnished rooms came into
his room. He heard someone laughing, laughing in a manner that was
neither happy nor pleasant. From other rooms he heard a woman talking
too loudly; and he heard people playing games for money; and he heard a
woman singing to a baby, and he heard someone weeping. Above him there
was music. Doors opened and closed. The trains outside rushed noisily
past. Some animal cried out in the night outside.
And the young man felt the breath of the house. It had a smell that was
more than bad; it seemed cold and sick and old and dying.
Then suddenly, as he rested there, the room was filled with the strong,
sweet smell of a flower, small and white, named mignonette. The smell
came so surely and so strongly that it almost seemed like a living
person entering the room. And the man cried aloud: “What, dear?” as if
he had been called.
He jumped up and turned around. The rich smell was near, and all around
him. He opened his arms for it. For a moment he did not know where he
was or what he was doing.
How could anyone be called by a smell? Surely it must have been a sound.
But could a sound have touched him?
“She has been in this room,” he cried, and he began to seek some sign of
her. He knew that if he found any small thing that had belonged to her,
he would know that it was hers. If she had only touched it, he would
know it. This smell of flowers that was all around him—she had loved it
and had made it her own. Where did it come from?
The room had been carelessly cleaned. He found many small things that
women had left. Something to hold their hair in place. Something to wear
in the hair to make it more beautiful. A piece of cloth that smelled of
another flower. A book. Nothing that had been hers.
And he began to walk around the room like a dog hunting a wild animal.
He looked in corners. He got down on his hands and knees to look at the
floor.
He wanted something that he could see. He could not realize that she was
there beside, around, against, within, above him, near to him, calling
him.
Then once again he felt the call. Once again he answered loudly: “Yes,
dear!” and turned, wild-eyed, to look at nothing. For he could not yet
see the form and color and love and reaching arms that were there in the
smell of white flowers. Oh, God! Where did the smell of flowers come
from? Since when has a smell had a voice to call? So he wondered, and
went on seeking.
He found many small things, left by many who had used the room. But of
her, who may have been there, whose spirit seemed to be there, he found
no sign.
And then he thought of the owner.
He ran from the room, with its smell of flowers, going down and to a
door where he could see a light.
She came out.
He tried to speak quietly. “Will you tell me,” he asked her, “who was in
my room before I came here?”
“Yes, sir. I can tell you again. It was Sprowls and Mooney, as I said.
It was really Mr. and Mrs. Mooney, but she used her own name. Theater
people do that.”
“Tell me about Mrs. Mooney. What did she look like?”
“Black-haired, short and fat. They left here a week ago.”
“And before they were here?”
“There was a gentleman. Not in the theater business. He didn’t pay.
Before him was Mrs. Crowder and her two children. They stayed four
months. And before them was old Mr. Doyle. His sons paid for him. He had
the room six months. That is a year, and further I do not remember.”
He thanked her and went slowly back to his room.
The room was dead. The smell of flowers had made it alive, but the smell
of flowers was gone. In its place was the smell of the house.
His hope was gone. He sat looking at the yellow gaslight. Soon he walked
to the bed and took the covers. He began to tear them into pieces. He
pushed the pieces into every open space around windows and door. No air,
now, would be able to enter the room. When all was as he wished it, he
put out the burning gaslight. Then, in the dark, he started the gas
again, and he lay down thankfully on the bed.
It was Mrs. McCool’s night to go and get them something cold to drink.
So she went and came back, and sat with Mrs. Purdy in one of those rooms
underground where the women who own these old houses meet and talk.
“I have a young man in my third floor back room this evening,” said Mrs.
Purdy, taking a drink. “He went up to bed two hours ago.”
“Is that true, Mrs. Purdy?” said Mrs. McCool. It was easy to see that
she thought this was a fine and surprising thing. “You always find
someone to take a room like that. I don’t know how you do it. Did you
tell him about it?”
“Rooms,” said Mrs. Purdy, in her soft thick voice, “are furnished to be
used by those that need them. I did not tell him, Mrs. McCool.”
“You are right, Mrs. Purdy. It’s the money we get for the rooms that
keeps us alive. You have the real feeling for business. There are many
people who wouldn’t take a room like that if they knew. If you told them
that someone had died in the bed, and died by their own hand, they
wouldn’t enter the room.”
“As you say, we have our living to think of,” said Mrs. Purdy.
“Yes, it is true. Only one week ago I helped you there in the third
floor back room. She was a pretty little girl. And to kill herself with
the gas! She had a sweet little face, Mrs. Purdy.”
“She would have been called beautiful, as you say,” said Mrs. Purdy,
“except for that dark spot she had growing by her left eye. Do fill up
your glass again, Mrs. McCool.”
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