| Tomorrow I die. 
		Tomorrow I die, and today I want to tell the world what happened and 
		thus perhaps free my soul from the horrible weight which lies upon it. 
 But listen! Listen, and you shall hear how I have been destroyed.
  
 When I was a child, I had a natural goodness of soul which led me to 
		love animals — all kinds of animals, but especially those animals we 
		call pets, animals which have learned to live with men and share their 
		homes with them. There is something in the love of these animals which 
		speaks directly to the heart of the man who has learned from experience 
		how uncertain and changeable is the love of other men.
 
 I was quite young when I married. You will understand the joy I felt to 
		find that my wife shared with me my love for animals. Quickly she got 
		for us several pets of the most likeable kind. We had birds, some 
		goldfish, a fine dog, and a cat.
 
 The cat was a beautiful animal, of unusually large size, and entirely 
		black. I named the cat Pluto, and it was the pet I liked best. I alone 
		fed it, and it followed me all around the house. It was even with 
		difficulty that I stopped it from following me through the streets.
 
 Our friendship lasted, in this manner, for several years, during which, 
		however, my own character became greatly changed. I began to drink too 
		much wine and other strong drinks.
 
		 
 
		As the days passed I became less loving in my manner; I became quick to 
		anger; I forgot how to smile and laugh. My wife — yes, and my pets, too, 
		all except the cat — were made to feel the change in my character.
 
 One night I came home quite late from the inn, where I now spent more 
		and more time drinking. Walking with uncertain step, I made my way with 
		effort into the house. As I entered I saw — or thought I saw — that 
		Pluto, the cat, was trying to stay out of my way, to avoid me. This 
		action, by an animal which I had thought still loved me, made me angry 
		beyond reason. My soul seemed to fly from my body. I took a small knife 
		out of my coat and opened it. Then I took the poor animal by the neck 
		and with one quick movement I cut out one of its fear-filled eyes!
 
 Slowly the cat got well. The hole where its eye had been was not a 
		pretty thing to look at, it is true; but the cat no longer appeared to 
		suffer any pain. As might be expected, however, it ran from me in fear 
		whenever I came near. Why should it not run? Yet this did not fail to 
		anger me. I felt growing inside myself a new feeling. Who has not, a 
		hundred times, found himself doing wrong, some evil thing for no other 
		reason than because he knows he should not? Are not we humans at all 
		times pushed, ever driven in some unknown way to break the law just 
		because we understand it to be the law?
 
 One day, in cold blood, I tied a strong rope around the cat’s neck, and 
		taking it down into the cellar under the house I hung it from one of the 
		wood beams above my head. I hung it there until it was dead. I hung it 
		there with tears in my eyes, I hung it because I knew it had loved me, 
		because I felt it had given me no reason to hurt it, because I knew that 
		my doing so was a wrong so great, a sin so deadly that it would place my 
		soul forever outside the reach of the love of God!
 
 That same night, as I lay sleeping, I heard through my open window the 
		cries of our neighbors. I jumped from my bed and found that the entire 
		house was filled with fire. It was only with great difficulty that my 
		wife and I escaped. And when we were out of the house, all we could do 
		was stand and watch it burn to the ground. I thought of the cat as I 
		watched it burn, the cat whose dead body I had left hanging in the 
		cellar. It seemed almost that the cat had in some mysterious way caused 
		the house to burn so that it could make me pay for my evil act, so that 
		it could take revenge upon me.
 
 Months went by, and I could not drive the thought of the cat out of my 
		mind. One night I sat in the inn, drinking as usual. In the corner I saw 
		a dark object that I had not seen before. I went over to see what it 
		could be. It was a cat, a cat almost exactly like Pluto. I touched it 
		with my hand and petted it, passing my hand softly along its back. The 
		cat rose and pushed its back against my hand.
 
 Suddenly, I realized that I wanted the cat. I offered to buy it from the 
		innkeeper, but he claimed he had never seen the animal before. As I left 
		the inn, it followed me, and I allowed it to do so. It soon became a pet 
		of both my wife and myself. The morning after I brought it home, however, 
		I discovered that this cat, like Pluto, had only one eye.
 
 How was it possible that I had not noticed this the night before? This 
		fact only made my wife love the cat more. But I myself found a feeling 
		of dislike growing in me. My growing dislike of the animal only seemed 
		to increase its love for me. It followed me, followed me everywhere, 
		always. When I sat, it lay down under my chair. When I stood up it got 
		between my feet and nearly made me fall. Wherever I went, it was always 
		there. At night, I dreamed of it. And I began to hate that cat!
 
 One day my wife called to me from the cellar of the old building where 
		we were now forced to live. As I went down the stairs, the cat, 
		following me as always, ran under my feet and nearly threw me down.
 
 In sudden anger, I took a knife and struck wildly at the cat. Quickly my 
		wife put out her hand and stopped my arm. This only increased my anger 
		and, without thinking, I turned and put the knife’s point deep into her 
		heart! She fell to the floor and died without a sound.
 
 I spent a few moments looking for the cat, but it was gone. And I had 
		other things to do, for I knew I must do something with the body, and 
		quickly. Suddenly, I noted a place in the wall of the cellar where 
		stones had been added to the wall to cover an old fireplace which was no 
		longer wanted.
  
 The walls were not very strongly built, and I found I could easily take 
		down those stones. Behind them there was, as I knew there must be, a 
		hole just big enough to hold the body. With much effort I put the body 
		in and carefully put the stones back in their place. I was pleased to 
		see that it was quite impossible for anyone to know that a single stone 
		had been moved.
 
 Days passed. Still there was no cat. A few people came and asked about 
		my wife, but I answered them easily. Then one day several officers of 
		the police came. Certain that they could find nothing, I asked them in 
		and went with them as they searched.
 
 Finally, they searched the cellar from end to end. I watched them 
		quietly, and, as I expected, they noticed nothing. But as they started 
		up the stairs again, I felt myself driven by some unknown inner force to 
		let them know, to make them know, that I had won the battle.
 
 “The walls of this building,” I said, “are very strongly built; it is a 
		fine old house.” And as I spoke, I struck with my stick that very place 
		in the wall behind which was the body of my wife. Immediately I felt a 
		cold feeling up and down my back as we heard coming out of the wall 
		itself a horrible cry.
 
 For one short moment, the officers stood looking at each other. Then 
		quickly they began to pick at the stones, and in a short time they saw 
		before them the body of my wife, black with dried blood and smelling of 
		decay. On the body’s head, its one eye filled with fire, its wide open 
		mouth the color of blood, sat the cat, crying out its revenge!
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